Homelessness at Shit's Creek

I am on the brink of being homeless. I never thought that something like this could happen to someone like me. But obviously, like a lot of other things, I was wrong about this. What really sucks is that it is not just me. I think I could handle living out of my car. I could really give a shit less. But what I don't get is that I have two children, and a  husband who is seriously ill, who always confessed a deep faith in Jesus. And Jesus apparently just don't give a shit no more, because Jesus just ain't coming through. I always had a mistrust in God, that he really, really, cared about what was happening in my life. Or that he actually (this is what I believe now) was just too impotent to be able to do anything about any of my real issues. Such as depression, insecurity, growing up a a co-dependent, providing my family with decent housing, jobs, and other sundry topics. Too many bad things have happened, and continue to happen, to those I love, for me NOT to raise my fist, middle-finger up, and yell, "YOU SON OF A BITCH, WHY DON'T YOU CARE????????"  But no one is listening. And now, after raising 3 children, watching my husband work from sun up to sun down, and never seemingly getting anywhere, and working myself but never seeming to get anywhere, I just say FUCK IT. American society just sucks, and they have sucked enough out of us, the working class. I don't care if I am a part of any society anymore, I detest and despise all those rich people who held us down and subservient for all those years, slaving away, working harder to get nowhere, I hate them all, and will work to see them defeated. And this "GOD" who claims to keep us safe and cozy is nothing more than a fantasy thrust upon the working class to keep them mild and meek. Until the dam breaks, and the tide rushes in. Then it will be readily apparent that there is no deity, no safety latch, no harbor. I wonder what my husband will say then. He will probably still adhere to his code of belief, but I will not be fooled anymore. Let the tide roll in, I can't predict what I am capable of when this happens, probably almost anything. I guess if the "CHOSEN" people weren't safe, then the rest of us are up shit's creek.